flaws

by bastille

When all of your flaws and all of my flaws

Are laid out one by one

A wonderful part of the mess that we made

We pick ourselves undone

All of your flaws and all of my flaws

They lie there hand in hand

Ones we've inherited, ones that we learned

They pass from man to man

There's a hole in my soul

I can't fill it I can't fill it

There's a hole in my soul

Can you fill it? Can you fill it?

You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve

And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground

Dig them up; let's finish what we've started

Dig them up, so nothing's left unturned

All of your flaws and all of my flaws,

When they have been exhumed

We'll see that we need them to be who we are

Without them we'd be doomed

There's a hole in my soul

I can't fill it I can't fill it

There's a hole in my soul

Can you fill it? Can you fill it?

You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve

And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground

Dig them up; let's finish what we've started

Dig them up, so nothing's left unturned

Oooooh

Oooooh

When all of your flaws

And all of my flaws are counted

When all of your flaws

And all of my flaws are counted

You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve

And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground

Dig them up. Let's finish what we've started

Dig them up. So nothing's left unturned

Oooooh

Oooooh

All of your flaws and all of my flaws

Are laid out one by one

Look at the wonderful mess that we made

We pick ourselves undone

growing into manhood

becoming an adult has been an intense process.  going through a second puberty has been both liberating and confusing.  i just want to focus on the 'positive' stuff (the things i like), but the other parts are much harder for me to grasp or focus on.  those parts i just want to put into a dark closet and never open.  bury it deep.  but that will only lead to headaches later.

• who am i?
• what kind of man am i?
• how can i unlearn/heal from past relationships?
• how can i resolve my relationship with my father?
• will i have a relationship with my dad?
• what do i want?
• what kind of man do i want to be?
• how do i become friends with more men?

how do i even begin to address any of these questions?  which one do i focus on first?  should i focus on all of them?  

being in this state of transition is taxing and exhausting.  all i wanna do i sleep and sleep and sleep.

clarity of vision

so in times when things are really difficult, i want to try to have a clear vision of what i want it to look like on the other side.  today, i was fortunate enough to be able to put it together with sand and figures.