doobie reminder

i don't smoke anymore for a reason. it feels good in the moment, but ultimately it makes me kinda sad the next day. i get stuck in my head and that's never productive. i have worked too hard to get outta my head. there is no need to push myself back in.

astrological realization

so i realized that i love scorpios but i can never date one again. i love them as friends and think that they are great people, but as partners for me, it doesn't work out. something unhealthy happens when i date them. it's unhealthy for both of us. i still love them though. it's good to be able to get some sort of 'objective' look at myself and relationships/friendships. maybe i'm just older and wiser now. maybe i'm more in touch with me and who i am. whatever the 'reason', it's good to make healthy decisions for myself.