remember

be nice to the girl.

hibernation

last night was the first time in a long time that i have had time to myself. i was able to kick in my house alone and just hang out. i did homework, took a nap, read, played on the internet and just laid about for while. it was so nice. i feel like a whole different person now. i really need to remember to do that more often. it just made me want to do more of that. i kind of want to hibernate for the winter. but alas, that just isn't really possible. but i'm glad that i got those 7 hours last night.

as a side note, it's really weird to be woken up from a nap by an earthquake. i didn't believe that it really was one. initially i thought i was just having a really vivid dream. then i thought my girlfriend had left her job to come to my house to shake my bed then leave. so in my groggy disbelief i went to my good friend google and looked it up online. and lo and behold....it was an actual earthquake.

maybe i should really try to chill out....

i hate the non-profit industrial complex. everyone is always behind. always in a rush. always doing shit last minute. fuck. i really need to get outta here.

apparently i should just chill out....

according to my horoscope, i shouldn't think about all the things in my previous posting......

VIRGO (August 23-September 22): Let go, and let Venus. With lucky thanks to her, enough of your life is running smoothly—not perfectly, Virgo, but with much less of the disruptive bumpiness others are grappling with—that you can afford to ease up a tad. And it's a good thing, too, since this is really not the best week for taking care of detail-oriented tasks or complicated chores. Over the coming month, you'll have ample opportunity to address these items (and many more!), so you needn't feel lazy or ashamed for taking life at a chilled-down pace at the current moment. Can you please stop puttering? preparing? arranging the components in the most efficient order, so that when it is time to get busy, you'll already have done part of the work? These little fiddlings do count, you know… and they're likely to get you all hot-and-bothered (when things don't fit, when you can't decide which goes where, when you don't have all the necessary parts to finish up the step you unwisely opted to begin), though you really could've just waited before jumping in. I promise: You can deal with the labor-intensive stuff later. For now, keep your hands off the worktable… and zone out on unproductive nonsense.

choices

so my tagline this year has been 'everyone makes choices'. i feel like recently i have made some not so good choices and they range from the small ones like what i feel like doing in the moment to bigger ones like getting sucked into a job that i hate. i feel kinda backed into a corner in my life right now. maybe it's because all i do is work and i don't really have counterbalance. i don't feel like i'm very pleasant to be around, so i just try to stay in the house. but then again, i miss all my friends. it's kind of a vicious little cycle at this point. and today is gonna be a long ass day....basically i am working from 9 am till midnight tonight. argh. i need to change some things in my life and i need a bit of time to myself to figure out what those things are. i can't keep this up forever.