revolutionary? me?

oh yeah, one more thing, a friend of mine sent this to me.....

Virgo August 23-September 22
You are revolutionizing your partnership patterns, learning how to empathize without over-identifying. This is not an easy task, but you are up to the challenge of finding the positive ground of compromise.

interesting....very, very interesting. it sounds really promising. i like it.

problem solver and then some

so the problem with work has been solved! if you want to donate to a great youth center that is starting up in richmond, ca....click here. also, apparently i keep wanting to over commit myself so i agreed to help with this. the geeky side of me keeps winning out and getting me involved in weird nerdy projects.

boring work frustrations

so i am supposed to be adding a credit card function to the website of my new job. but i have encountered a huge problem that i don't know how to handle. well first of all this is *way* beyond my skill level, but as with all jobs, i am giving myself a crash course in how to do this. but what i've found is not good. basically i need an ecommerce plugin or addon but the CMS system that we are using does not have one! argh! i don't know how to code, so i can't just create something. i am pretty good at piecing things together, but when i don't have all the pieces, then it's just really impossible. i tried calling my geeky friends, but one is unavailable due to school and homework and the other has to study for a test tomorrow and doesn't really know much about CMS systems. this is my one big task that *needs* to be done this week, and i can't do it! fuck! i guess i really need to work hard to earn my new paycheck......

helpless

i don't know what to do. i visited my friend with the sick mom and it was really hard. i was up there pretty much all day today and i just feel like i didn't do anything. i felt so useless and confused. i dunno how my friend is going so strong. i guess she has had the last 10 years to deal with all this. it's pretty amazing. there were 3 of us from the east bay who went up to see her. we basically had a picnic on her bed and just hung out. it could have been any other day almost. we just hung out and tried to be normal. but how can you be normal knowing that her mom is dying in the next room? i feel like there should be something that i should do for her. something to make things easier. something to make things right. but i don't know what right is in this situation. i know it's not for me to make right or fix. i just feel so helpless. i didn't know what to say. i didn't know what to do. i guess things are just like that.

a little bit scared

so my friend's mom has been sick for a while now. i guess it's getting worse. i don't know what to do. i'm gonna go see her tomorrow, but i dunno. i feel weird. i don't know what i should be saying to her. or what i should be doing.