today has been a skid row kinda day. yeah, the past is a tricky place to visit. it's amazing how much we live through in our lives and how we keep on going. my life is being turned upside down and inside out. it's cleansing and refreshing. i am moving across town tomorrow and i can't wait to get settled. i have so much to do and i need a home base to do it. i did meet one of my neighbors and he is a fabulous gay persian man who makes solid body versions of traditional indian and persian instruments and makes them electric. i can't wait to get to know him better. so many new and interesting characters get introduced into this movie we call our life.
nostalgia. synchronicity. past. present. future. self. friends. family. framily. love.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Friday, June 1, 2007
18 and life
i heard this on my drive back from la-la and it made me miss my friend who is in hungary. we spent so many summer nights listening to this while driving through the city to the beach, screaming along with it at the top of our lungs. i guess i'm feeling nostalgic.
back on the sauce.....
so i have been trying to not drink caffeine recently and i was doing ok. but now i'm back on the sauce. i like coffee. i love how it smells. i love how it tastes. and i love the caffeine. i figure i've stopped drinking it before, so i can stop again later. i just have so much to do. so i need a little boost to get through it. i'm not getting all crazy with it though. just one cup a day. not like back in the day where i would drink like 5 cups a day and not eat. so there is that.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
permanent delete
i hate doing stupid shit. and today it was a kinda big one. right at the end of the day too. grr.
so i accidentally permanently deleted a bunch of emails from my outlook and i need them back. of course it was all the new applications for the two jobs that we have open. and of course i haven't printed them out yet. so they are gone. and i don't know how to get them back. argh. i feel so dumb. i couldn't even deal with it anymore today so i left. i'll figure it out tomorrow. hopefully.
i'm just so overwhelmed with life right now. and my body is showing it. my back is a mess and my mind isn't much better. but all in all i'm having a good time with life right now. these things just happen and i'm taking it in stride. i'm not getting hung up about it. it's momentarily frustrating. but everything works out. it always does.
but if anyone knows how to restore permanently deleted emails from outlook....hook a boi up!
so i accidentally permanently deleted a bunch of emails from my outlook and i need them back. of course it was all the new applications for the two jobs that we have open. and of course i haven't printed them out yet. so they are gone. and i don't know how to get them back. argh. i feel so dumb. i couldn't even deal with it anymore today so i left. i'll figure it out tomorrow. hopefully.
i'm just so overwhelmed with life right now. and my body is showing it. my back is a mess and my mind isn't much better. but all in all i'm having a good time with life right now. these things just happen and i'm taking it in stride. i'm not getting hung up about it. it's momentarily frustrating. but everything works out. it always does.
but if anyone knows how to restore permanently deleted emails from outlook....hook a boi up!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........
sometimes i just feeling like screaming. just yelling to get it out.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
vay-cay
wow! so i just got back into town and i have so much energy. it may be the caffeine, but i think more so, it's the fact that i got a little vaca. i had a blast in la-la land. i did a mini homo tour of pomona, pasadena and long beach. the gays down south are a 'bit' different than the homos up here. and i didn't expect to see cock on saturday night. but i did. it was a surprisingly relaxing and random weekend. i also go to see some live music and got to hang out with the band members. pictures are on their way. and yeah, um. i dunno. i got to kick it with an old friend who i haven't seen in like 5 years and we have plans for a photo shoot in august. and i'm super excited.
i also watched billy elliot again. man, i have a problem remembering the traumatic parts of movies. the same thing happened with ma vie en rose. anyways, me and a friend ended up watching billy elliot last night because we hadn't seen it in a while. after like 20 minutes, we were both bawling. i don't remember crying the last time i saw it. i only remembered the fantastic ending. but forgot all the trauma and drama that it took to get there. i guess that's how it goes for me.
anyways, i tried prolonging coming back as long as i could because i just didn't want to come back to my life right now. i was really enjoying being on vaca and it was way too short. it's a good thing that i have another trip down south in the works for august and a trip to brooklyn in july in the works too.
i also watched billy elliot again. man, i have a problem remembering the traumatic parts of movies. the same thing happened with ma vie en rose. anyways, me and a friend ended up watching billy elliot last night because we hadn't seen it in a while. after like 20 minutes, we were both bawling. i don't remember crying the last time i saw it. i only remembered the fantastic ending. but forgot all the trauma and drama that it took to get there. i guess that's how it goes for me.
anyways, i tried prolonging coming back as long as i could because i just didn't want to come back to my life right now. i was really enjoying being on vaca and it was way too short. it's a good thing that i have another trip down south in the works for august and a trip to brooklyn in july in the works too.
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