drifty

so i'm still feeling rather uncomfortable these days, but there is now a sense of calm around it. i don't feel anxious about it. i guess, i'm just becoming one with being uncomfortable. which is a good lesson for me.

as for other things, i got to see my parents this week, which was really nice. i've been enjoying spending time with them. i don't have this weird sense of dread or animosity when i see them now. i've heard my mom laugh again, which is really nice. it's been a long time.

and this sunday, i get to go to sacramento and break shit. i get so excited to do something that is productively destructive. i love it. nothing like doing a few hours of hard labor to make you feel good.

uncomfortable

i have been feeling a bit weird and uncomfortable recently. i don't know quite what it is yet. it may be some anxiety about all the changes that are gonna happen in my life in the next few months. it may be that i'm broke. it may be that i never sleep. most likely it is a combination of everything. i feel like i don't have enough time for everything in my life. and what i have been doing is just going to school and working. i don't really have a life. summer will be better. i think i may just have to work and not go to school. i really want to take this class though.....i just don't think i can take the same hectic schedule i have now. argh. why aren't there more hours in the day? oh well. i'll figure it out. everything always works out the way it's supposed to. i just gotta remember that.