projecting the positive

today at work was hard.  i was irritated and i couldn't really stop.  i tried to get out of it and relax and take things as they came, but it really didn't work.  it got to the point where i wanted to punch someone in the face....or neck....or something.  i ended up having a random chat on facebook with a friend and asked her how she stays positive.  it turns out she is going through a hard time and just puts the positive out there.  i am going to try to put positive things out there and see what that brings me.  at this point, i think i have been trying to do that, but really the negative is getting in the way.  so, i'm going to try that tactic and just put the positive out there and see if that changes things.

gay cousin

just saw my gay cousin at trader joe's.  he hasn't come out yet, but he's a big ole gaywad.  maybe if he came out then i can talk to my family too.  i dunno.  it makes me sad that he lives a closeted life.  or maybe i'm just sad because i live a closeted life as well.