lighter....

after checking myself and checking in with my staff, i feel better. i realized that hearing their stories are triggering my own issues of things that have happened in my past. things that i thought i had dealt with. but for whatever reason are coming up again. it all leads to the lesson of letting go. i really need to get that into my soul.

realization....

so i realized concretely today why i've been such a stress case and why i have been so frustrated and angsty feeling. i am really worried about one of my young staff. i feel really helpless around her in the sense that i know that i can't fix her life, but i really want to. i either want to fix it all for her or shake her really hard so she realizes what she needs to do to make her life work differently. i dunno. i haven't slept well the past few nights because of this. i can fall asleep pretty easily, but then i wake up and have weird restless sleep. i don't want to get up in the morning and am pretty grouchy. i guess part of my time away from the bay will be to get a little perspective on what i need to do to support her. i can see how amazing she is and i just want her to see it too.

printer vs. bin

nahid wants this to happen here.....

death and taxes

wtf?!@?!? how the hell do i owe so much money in taxes? apparently the government is gonna screw me this year. fuck. i guess working 2 jobs and going to school was not really worth it. gr.