when one things falls, apparently everything else goes down with it. i feel like i am in some wormhole where everything shitty that can happen is happening right now. first of all, this started with me recognizing that i need some time off work so i took a few days off this week and planned a longer trip in may. once i took those steps to take care of myself apparently it set off an avalanche of shit.
first i find out my grandma dies. with that apparently my uncles are being complete jerks to my mom and it's all just so messed up. and now all these things are piling up at work and i don't know how to deal with them. i feel like i am responding to things and all my responses are wrong. i know feelings are irrational, but it just feels like right now no matter what i do, it's just not right or good enough.
hopefully this shit storm is a short one.
