Saturday, March 31, 2007

peanut butter disproves evolution...

what the fuck??!?!?! the entire food industry disproves evolution by it's billions of 'experiments' every day????



thanks boingboing!

Friday, March 30, 2007

i am an...

Asshole
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Asshole (or arsehole outside of North America) is a slang term for the anus, the whole posterior or an abusive term for a person.

Since ass or arse means anus, and hole is commonly used as a euphemism for the same organ, the word is technically a pleonasm in its literal use; however in common speech ass or arse is more often used as a pars pro toto for the buttocks (or even for the whole individual), so the specification -hole effectively restores the original anatomical meaning anus. An analogous term in a Cognate language is Arschloch in German.

Semantics

The word is mainly used as a profanity towards someone the speaker does not like or whose behavior is hurtful, self-centered or particularly abrasive. Usually, the term is directed at a male (in female anatomy, the focus is deflected to the nearby genitals the vagina). It may also sometimes be used to describe people who are viewed as stupid or useless or even meaningless, similar to jerk.

This word or its literal translation is found in colloquial speech in a number of cultures (in both English and other languages). This is because it describes an organ of elimination that is considered a taboo region (since it belongs to the intimate parts) of the body in many societies.

The English word ass (meaning donkey, a cognate of its zoological name Equus asinus) may also be used as a term of contempt, referring to a silly or stupid person. In North America, the words arse and ass have become synonymous; however, in the rest of the world, ass still only refers to the donkey, rather than the arse (buttocks). It is worth noting that speakers of some varieties of English "drop their Rs" before consonants, leading to a pronunciation of arse that is quite similar to ass.

Until the early 1990s, the word was considered one of a number of words that could not be uttered on commercial television in the United States. Comedian Andrew Dice Clay caused a major shock when he uttered the word during a televised awards show in the 1980s. By 1994, however, the word was considered less vulgar, and was often featured in dialog on the long-running television series NYPD Blue; it has yet to become anything close to commonplace on network TV, however. It is important to note that while the word ass has found a place on broadcast television, asshole is not used, probably due to its more vulgar connotation. In some broadcast edits (such as the syndication airings of South Park), the word is partially bleeped out - ironically, as "assh---", with the profane half of the word intact.

In 1993, actor Denis Leary enjoyed some success with a comedic song called "Asshole" which opened his stage play No Cure For Cancer and was featured in a music video. It topped the Triple J Hottest 100, 1993 in Australia and subsequently reached #2 on the charts in that country in 1994. Alternative rock artist Beck has written and recorded a song called "Asshole," one of his most acclaimed compositions. The British ska-punk band Snuff also have a song named "Arsehole", while Canadian comedy troupe Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie have had a song called "The Asshole Song" in their repertoire since the late 1980s. In 2004, the song "Asshole" by the band Jim's Big Ego was used as the soundtrack to a popular internet filmstrip about the Bush administration. Gene Simmons of rock band KISS released his solo album under the name Asshole which also featured a song of the same name.

Similar compounds with ass

Asshat is a slightly trendier and less severe variation of asshole, graphically describing someone who has his "head up his own ass" (i.e., not knowing what's going on), or a variation of "butthead". In the former sense, it is suggested that one is wearing one's ass for a hat. A more modern usage of asshat describes a person doing something stupid, and can apply to anyone: "The boss is up to asshattery because he broke the computer even though he knew he was doing the wrong thing." This meaning was popularized by Something Awful character Jeff K.

The word is popular in many online communities, serving as a more palatable version of its antecedent. According to Google's Usenet statistics, the word only saw a token appearance every day or two starting in July, 1999, but following a slow rise in 2002, it entered popular usage in May, 2003.

As it continued to grow in popularity, asshat began to be used by online gamers, in first person shooter and massive multiplayer role playing games. It was a commonplace word on servers where vulgar language was not allowed.

The insult assclown is used in a similar fashion, although it is not as common. Assclown has become well known among fans of the WWE due to wrestler Chris Jericho using it during his promos, especially his "Highlight Reel"; the term was also famously used in the film Office Space to describe singer-songwriter Michael Bolton. "Assclown" is also used by radio personality Todd Schnitt.

Asstard is another rarer variant upon the ass– theme. It is possibly a portmanteau of asshole and retard and has almost the same meaning as asshole, but with a greater implied connotation of stupidity. An identically spelled version of the same word is a contraction of asshole and bastard, with a commensurately more abusive meaning.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

blasted hope

so, now it's actually going to be a personal, kinda self indulgent post. no song lyrics or youtube videos in this post. woot!

when someone dies, you know that they are gone and you just have to deal with yourself and grieve and mourn and eventually move towards acceptance of your loss. but with relationships it's an entirely different beast. i mean, you still have to go through a mourning/grieving process and move towards acceptance, but when you are the one who is left, you are also left holding onto this blasted thing called hope. when a relationship ends, the person is still alive, so there is still a 'possibility' of a future. you are left holding onto the remnants of your relationship and generally, it just sucks. each interaction subsequent to the break-up is heartbreaking. it still holds an emotional link to your former partner and sends you into turmoil, but that is my own issue and i need to deal with it.

not to say that it's easy to leave someone either. i mean, you will have to deal with the consequences of your actions no matter what you do. it's up to you how you live your life. i am working towards living a really intentional and conscious life, but it's hard when you come from a background of denial, self-hate, self-destruction and repression. as someone who has tried in a variety of different way to run away, it's hard to realize that changing the outside, still leaves you to deal with yourself. you can't run away from yourself. try as hard as you can, but at the end of day you are still with yourself and can't escape that.

also what i've realized is that it is a very fine line between taking responsibility and taking blame. i have found that taking responsibility means looking at your actions and putting them in front of your face and seeing them as things that you did well, things that you need to work on, and things that you still need to learn. but taking blame is taking all those things and turning them inward and for me that ends in really self-destructive and self-hateful behavior. i can see that in myself, but i am also gaining the strength and tools to not do something 'stupid' to myself. trying to be positive and pro-active takes a lot of energy, but it replenishes you. being negative and self-hating also takes a lot of energy, but it depletes you. it's time to let go of the negative and bring on the positive.

to unlearn all that you have learned to begin anew fuckin' sucks. it's good, but it sucks. at the same time, everyone is fucked up in some way and has issues, but that doesn't mean that you can't love or be loved. i guess it's about learning to live with yourself first and then finding someone who can live with themselves and their issues and also with you and your issues. it also helps to be in therapy. to get an objective view of yourself is great. i'm holding onto several little gems that my therapist has told me in the last few weeks and that is helping to sustain myself. so there is that....

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

oh my peeps

ok...this is weird and gay and cute. i guess that's why i like it.

these are my peoples

i'm so proud.



also, just wanted to say happy birthday to my little brother. he turns 29 today! dang!

Monday, March 26, 2007

re-write

ok. so i was going to post this really inane post about having an existential crisis and blah, blah, blah. but instead it's going to be more song lyrics. what does it mean when you find solace in an omarion song?

icebox
by omarion feat. timbaland

Fussin and fightin we back at it again (gin)
I know that it's my fault, you don't understand (no)
I got memories (huh), this is crazy (huh)
You ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know
Good wit mom, good wit pop, cool wit all my niggaz (my niggaz)
I should try to decide, wanting to let you in but (no)
Damn these memories (huh), and it's crazy (huh)
You ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know

Bridge
Girl I really wanna work this out cuz I'm tired of fighting
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out damn girl I'm trying
It's no excuse, no excuse

Chorus
I got this icebox where my heart used to be
I got this icebox where my heart used to be
No woah, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
No woah, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold (2x)

Why can't I, get it right, just can't let it go (go)
I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no mo'(no)
I got memories (uh), this is crazy (huh)
Shay ain't nothin like, the girl I used to know
Don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it
Cuz my heart is in the same ol condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eyes, and promise you won't do me the same

Bridge
Chorus

Timbaland
Uh, I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold, cold world
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl

Uh, I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold, cold world
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl
Don't wanna mess this up, better keep your eye on me girl

Bridge
Chorus

Girl I really wanna work this out cuz I'm tired of fighting