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meat puppets
unicorns
stems
futch
female butch queen
leonid the magnificent
lil tippy
fay latio
harry potter
salsa
'just listen!'
oiled up
warm underwear
brazilian
gaffer
lighting
falling

good food, good friends, good times.

sleep is for losers?

i worked for almost 14 hours again today and i'm totally exhausted, but i decided to go to luka's to see my friends even though i'm all wet and smell like beer and food and sweat. basically, i went in, found my friends, said hi, then left. and now i'm home. my right arm has been killing me since yesterday and here i am on the computer, aggravating it. i'm too old for this shit! ha! well, i'm having fun and i've decided that i'm gonna just give up sleep for the next two years. if i'm gonna be working this hard in my life, then i'm gonna play just as hard. i'm gonna adopt my old old motto of 'i'll sleep when i'm dead'.

dishwasher with no life

so tonight i started my new job at the parkway theater as the dishwasher. i am so tired now that i feel like crying. i don't know how i'll be able to do this again tomorrow night. everyone was saying that i would be done by midnight, but alas i didn't finish until 1:15. i know it's just the first day and it's a big change in my schedule, but i really feel like crying. everything hurts and i have to be up again in like 6 hours to go to work. what have i done to myself? in a month, this will be a lot different. i just have to remember that. once school starts, things will be different. i'll hopefully only be working one job and going to school. i'm a little nervous about how this is all gonna work out, but i know that it will. i just won't have a social life at all. just school and work. it's what i've been working towards and now that it's here, i kinda wanna cry. it's a humbling experience to be working so hard again. i've been such a slacker that it's hard to actually do work. everyone's gotta pay their dues to get to where they wanna go. it's my turn to pay now and it's all good. basically, i'm not gonna have any social life anymore. it's just gonna be work and school and work and school. i feel like i'm committing to not sleeping for the next 2 years of my life and i'm just gonna be working really hard. i wonder where i will end up. i'll just have to wait and see.

d.a.n.c.e.

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something good my way comes....

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): "Write the bad things that are done to you in sand," says an Arab proverb, "but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble." That's perfect advice for you in the coming days. Why? Because I believe you'll be cheated or slighted in a way that will have only minor, short-term consequences, whereas on the other hand you'll be the beneficiary of a loophole or the recipient of a generous blessing that should reverberate for a long time.

thanks rob brezny. this is something i really needed to hear today.

i am having a bit of the post vacation blues today. i didn't want to come back to my life and be responsible and have to work and stuff. i just wanna play all the time, but alas, it's life. anyways, i also realized that seeing my friend in nyc was fantastic, but coming back here, i just realized how much i miss having her in my life everyday. she's family. and i don't have that with folks out here right now. not to say that my friends out here aren't great. it's just a different level of intimacy and friendship. i'm glad that i have a friend that is so close and i'm fortunate that i have her in my life. i just wish we were on the same coast. i was tempted to just stay in nyc, but i have stuff i'm doing here that i can't leave just yet. who knows? maybe i will end up in new york or canada or turkey or anywhere really. i'll just have to wait and see where i go.

back in the bay

now that i'm back in the bay, i don't know what to do. well, that's not true. it's just that i still want to be on vacation. it is kinda comforting to be back home though. my head is kinda swimming right now. my sleep schedule is kinda screwy, i'm feeling emotional, and i have to go back to work today. i feel like i'm totally walking blindly in the world right now. and it's not actually freaking me out. it's just interesting to be without a sense. yeah, i guess that sums it up. i feel like i've momentarily lost a sense and i'm trying to navigate the world now. either that or i'm on a bit of a sensory overload where all my senses are hyper sensitive. who knows. gotta go finish getting ready for work now.