step in the right direction

so i know i've been complaining about too much work and not enough time for other shit.  but i have recently become obsessed with design blogs.  i can't get enough of swissmiss.  it's a designer in brooklyn who just blogs cool shit that she finds.  wow!  it's so inspiring and cool to see everything.  it's making me very excited.  who knows maybe i'll actually use that excitement to create something.....

i wish!

thanks xkcd!

strength in bunnies

less than?

since all i do is work these days, i haven't had time to think, to feel, to do much of anything really.

but all of a sudden today i had the overwhelming feeling that i was not enough.  that i am less than, deficient.  i have begun the process of starting hormones, but is that enough?  will i ever really feel like a complete man?  i mean i've always felt not right.  will hormones and surgery make me feel complete?  i don't know.  i guess all i can do is move forward and through this.    

this too shall pass

i may be a little late on this.  but holy shit!  it's good!

work-whore

all i do is work these days. work, work, work. whatever happened to me having a life? is this how i am going to approach middle age? lame! i don't seem to have time to daydream or stare at walls or sleep. i can't even seem to find the time to make doctors appointments....

well, at least this weekend i went to little farm up in tilden park and saw sheep, cows, turkeys, chickens, ducks, bunnies, and goats.

i gotta keep myself open this week....

VIRGO (August 23-September 22): A particular person in your life (or more than one, for that matter) may surprise you this week… and in a good-surprise kind of way. (In fact, that certain person could prove to be the actual surprise him-/herself, if a beloved figure from your past returns or a soon-to-be-beloved figure from your future finally arrives.) But you, Virgo, also bear the potential to miss the surprise altogether, if you are so sure you know how a given interaction or the flow of your entire day is going to go that you're merely moving through the motions, getting exactly what you expected to get because that's all you're open to. To take advantage of the continuing influences of startling insight and evolutionary growth in your relationship house (the 7th), then, you mustn't assume you've 'figured out' any other individual's behaviors, motivations, intentions or feelings toward you. Even if you've been partnered with them for years or decades, they may still have a new trick or two up their sleeve. Allow them the freedom to be different—and allow yourself the joy of being pleasantly surprised.