weekend off

this is the first weekend off i've had in a long time. i totally needed it. as is evidenced by my last few posts. i have done nothing really today except get a little tipsy, do my laundry and watch anthony bourdain on youtube. i really want korean food right now. for some reason watching kimchee get made really turned me on. now i'm going to a party and bringing bacon wrapped hot dogs. what more could you want for a saturday?

yep. maxed. out.

so i feel like i'm on the verge of having a meltdown. i have made too many commitments and have no time for myself. and when i do get a moment to myself, my mind is racing and it's not really relaxing. or rather i have this nagging feeling that i should be doing something and i have no idea what it is. anyways, suffice it to say, i've been stuck in my head and i can't get out. i have also been having some crazy ass dreams, so my sleep isn't even restful. i wake up more tired than when i went to bed. maybe it's time to get serious and get to exercising. i need some endorphins. it's either that or start smokin' dope again. and we all know how that goes.......