so yeah, my sleep patterns are all sorts of outta wack. i have been staying up really late and then being sleepy all day. it's weird. usually, i knock out fairly early, but these days, i'm up until the wee hours of the morning. not doing anything, just fucking around.
i guess i have been mulling over what i am doing with my life right now. i have officially decided to not go back to school right now. i realized that i really like auto mechanics and i had fun doing it, but i don't know if i love it. i can't really seem to commit to anything.
my jobs are ok. but they are not necessarily what i really want to do. i don't know what i want to do. that is the dilemma right now. or rather...again. there is some stuff happening at one of my jobs, but i am not ready to talk about it right now since, it's still in the talking stage and nothing is set yet. i'll have to wait and see what happens with that.
i'm really happy with my girlfriend. we get along so well and have so much fun. even if we disagree, we are still good. i never feel like it's a make it or break it situation. we can hang out and have fun and if we do argue, it's still really good. it's kinda scary. i dunno how to explain it. i guess it's weird because i'm 32 and this is the healthiest relationship i have ever been in. and that's what makes it weird. the fact that it is healthy.
i dunno. i need to see my friends more often and i definitely need to see my family more often. i just work so much and when i'm not working, i just want to be at my house. but that will work itself out soon. i did get to see a friend on saturday night who i haven't seen in a while. i need to call my friend in nyc back and chat with her. it's been ages since we have had an actual conversation.
i definitely feel optimistic about life and the world in general, although it is weird that bernie mac died on saturday and isaac hayes died on sunday. why are all the black men dying?
yeah, so this is rambling and probably doesn't make a lot of sense. but in a nutshell, that is what is happening these days. i think i need to do an art project soon so i can keep myself in balance.
