caffeine addiction

i really am addicted to the stuff. i didn't have any this morning and i was such a bitch. i guess it just goes along with the fact that i just really like uppers. it's why i liked speed so much. i just hate feeling tired. my brain is so much more clear with caffeine. i can think. i can react. i can function. not to say that i can't function without it. i have gone through many periods of not drinking caffeine. i guess i'm just in a caffeine period again. which reminds me. i really want a french press so i can start making coffee at home. i don't know what the point of this posting is other than being a confession of my addiction to caffeine.

#200

so this is my 200th post and i just have to say that i love my life. i know i've been crazy and stressed out in the last month or so, but under it all, i have maintained a center. i know that the craziness will pass. i know that i will get through all my stress and stuff. it's like i'm this weird calm center in a maelstrom. it's a good place to be. i am finally re-focusing on school. my money issues have been handled. i am working less. i am seeing my friends again, slowly but surely. i have a great girl. i have a great idea that i am going to make a reality. and my friend down in lala land has an art project idea that i get to hear about this weekend. i love it. love love love it!

things to remember.....

eat healthy
move a bit
look for a new job
get some sleep
take my vitamins
spend time in the bath
read for leisure
go outside during the day