that old feeling....

of wanting to run away is back again. weird. i have no where to run to, yet that old desire is still there.

p.m.s. & f.e.a.r.

every month about this time, i get a bad case of f.e.a.r. which is brought on by p.m.s. i become so insecure and doubt everything about myself and my life. i can't seem to make any decisions without freaking out. i can't decide what i want to eat. if i'm tired or not. i second guess everything that people say to me and think that everyone is out to get me and hurt my feelings. everything becomes this terrible vortex of self pity and fear. argh. i hate it. watching the injecting t video earlier today totally freaked me out. i curled up into a ball on my bed. yet at the same time, there is still some rational thought in my head telling me that all these insecurities are made up and not true, but that little voice gets so overpowered by the feelings of inadequacy. argh. i hate this.

self injecting t