hostility abounds

wow. i feel so aggro and grumpy and mad. i can't seem to shake this feeling. it's been hanging around me for a while now, but i've been hiding it under the guise of being nice. i dunno. maybe it's just my disease-addled brain. my fuse feels very short these days and i don't know what to do to change that. i don't know how to release this weird angsty, angry feeling inside. i have been drinking a bit to dull the feeling and fake myself out with drunken euphoria, but as we all know from my past, that doesn't work in the long term. i dunno. maybe i'm trying to change too much right now with the quitting of cigarettes, the no carbs and the sickness. i'll work it out somehow. i always do.

depresso

being sick for so long is making me feel really depressed and inadequate. lame.

crayon art

how cool is this! it's made with crayons. check out this for more stuff by this guy.

sickie

so i got the plague about 2 weeks ago. i ended up passing it on to the rest of the staff at work. i finally got better and now i have another cold. it's definitely not as bad as the plague was, but i'm not feeling well. my head is all fuzzy and i can't focus my eyes really. i hate being sick. anyways, after getting the plague, i stopped smoking. i haven't had a cigarette in almost 3 weeks. it seems like i was 'healthier' when i was smoking. lame. i'm just grouchy now.