so i had a wonderful birthday celebration last friday. it was fun and chill and everything i needed.
the other thing that is bigger and more prominent for me right now is my transition. i feel, not necessarily a sense of urgency, but a sense of momentum. i dunno. it is still really confusing. what also doesn't help is that i can't seem to just find a trans friendly endocrinologist who i can talk to about hormones that is on my insurance plan. the stupid blue shield site is so confusing and the info they have about the doctors is not enough for me to make a decision. i dunno. i should be going to sleep since i have to get up early, but instead i am researching the blue shield website to find a doctor. this is ridiculous. i'm going to bed.
