Monday, November 22, 2010
holiday blues
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
same old same old
it seems like all i write about on this blog is how i am need to change something. how i feel trapped. with moments of lucidity where i am in the moment. maybe i haven't changed as much as i think. my mind is my greatest asset as well as my greatest torment.
Monday, August 23, 2010
lost
sometimes it's very nice to get lost. today i have gotten lost several times. i didn't freak out. i just melted into the joy of getting lost. i guess it's hard to get lost if your heart feels full and you appreciate your life. the goal is to be able to carry this with me when i am back in my life and not on vacation. or is it to take more vacations?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
run away!
i need to get out of the bay. i need something different. something new. this same old shit is dragging me down.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
take charge of my life!
my horoscope for this week:
VIRGO (August 23-September 22): During the course of the week, with Mars moving into your solar 2nd while your ruler Mercury finally arrives in your sign, the number-one topic to devote your pragmatic-analyst's mind to resolving: how to ensure the recent gains attained through more forthright assertiveness can be banked for lasting utility. Having gotten this far in your battle to overcome bashful self-denial, Virgo, you must commit to holding yourself to this new standard… or risk losing ground and slipping backwards into your restrictive self-containment chamber. It wouldn't hurt to outwardly articulate a few explicit statements of such commitment (i.e., 'I will never [blank] again!'; ' From here on out, I'll always [blank] instead of [blank]'; etc.)… mantras you can tape to your bathroom mirror, repeat each day during your morning meditations, or use as instigating guideposts for more detailed free-write journaling. Because everything you've lately achieved has been at least partially due to Saturn, it is not a fluke—it was hard-earned and, therefore, must be carefully safeguarded like the precious treasure it is.
I really have to work on this. I can't slip back into my old ways. They did not serve me. Mantras to follow soon....
VIRGO (August 23-September 22): During the course of the week, with Mars moving into your solar 2nd while your ruler Mercury finally arrives in your sign, the number-one topic to devote your pragmatic-analyst's mind to resolving: how to ensure the recent gains attained through more forthright assertiveness can be banked for lasting utility. Having gotten this far in your battle to overcome bashful self-denial, Virgo, you must commit to holding yourself to this new standard… or risk losing ground and slipping backwards into your restrictive self-containment chamber. It wouldn't hurt to outwardly articulate a few explicit statements of such commitment (i.e., 'I will never [blank] again!'; ' From here on out, I'll always [blank] instead of [blank]'; etc.)… mantras you can tape to your bathroom mirror, repeat each day during your morning meditations, or use as instigating guideposts for more detailed free-write journaling. Because everything you've lately achieved has been at least partially due to Saturn, it is not a fluke—it was hard-earned and, therefore, must be carefully safeguarded like the precious treasure it is.
I really have to work on this. I can't slip back into my old ways. They did not serve me. Mantras to follow soon....
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
myers-briggs take 3
just took a 'career test' and it seemed like a myers-briggs test. apparently i am not the same as i was.
this was my result this time:
ESTJ
ESTJ's fear a bankrupt nation that abandons its heritage and its obligation to a prescribed set of standards. Like all SJ's, ESTJ's feel the need to earn their place in a just society. ESTJ's believe that membership is ensured through responsible serving and the threat of being forsaken or cast out will make them feel insecure. They will worry about dereliction of duties and betrayal. The resulting stress can cause ESTJ's to redouble their efforts at controlling disorder. In an effort to correct what they feel is out of place, they will direct their anger and frustration at what they consider the irresponsible behavior of others. At these times, others may feel the ESTJ is not responsive to their point of view and is jumping to unjustified conclusions.
If stress continues, the ESTJ may become physically immobilized and experience illness, unpleasant bodily sensations, and fatigue. Feeling incapacitated, the ESTJ dreads the thought of being deserted and begins to feel increasingly unappreciated and left out. Their grievance list usually includes those to whom they are responsible; thus it may appear that the ESTJ is neglecting their own obligations by blaming others. While exempting themselves from their own responsibilities, the ESTJ may henpeck and nag others. This can cause those who feel hindered by the ESTJ's complaints to feel defiant and to rebel further.
Careers
This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.
government employee
pharmaceutical sales
auditor
computer analyst
technical trainer
project manager
officer manager
factory supervisor
credit analyst
electrical engineer
stockbroker
regulatory compliance officer
chief information officer
construction worker
general contractor
paralegal
industrial engineer
budget analyst
data base manager
funeral director
cook
security guard
dentist
weird. one career option for me is a funeral director. odd.
this was my result this time:
ESTJ
ESTJ's fear a bankrupt nation that abandons its heritage and its obligation to a prescribed set of standards. Like all SJ's, ESTJ's feel the need to earn their place in a just society. ESTJ's believe that membership is ensured through responsible serving and the threat of being forsaken or cast out will make them feel insecure. They will worry about dereliction of duties and betrayal. The resulting stress can cause ESTJ's to redouble their efforts at controlling disorder. In an effort to correct what they feel is out of place, they will direct their anger and frustration at what they consider the irresponsible behavior of others. At these times, others may feel the ESTJ is not responsive to their point of view and is jumping to unjustified conclusions.
If stress continues, the ESTJ may become physically immobilized and experience illness, unpleasant bodily sensations, and fatigue. Feeling incapacitated, the ESTJ dreads the thought of being deserted and begins to feel increasingly unappreciated and left out. Their grievance list usually includes those to whom they are responsible; thus it may appear that the ESTJ is neglecting their own obligations by blaming others. While exempting themselves from their own responsibilities, the ESTJ may henpeck and nag others. This can cause those who feel hindered by the ESTJ's complaints to feel defiant and to rebel further.
Careers
This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.
government employee
pharmaceutical sales
auditor
computer analyst
technical trainer
project manager
officer manager
factory supervisor
credit analyst
electrical engineer
stockbroker
regulatory compliance officer
chief information officer
construction worker
general contractor
paralegal
industrial engineer
budget analyst
data base manager
funeral director
cook
security guard
dentist
weird. one career option for me is a funeral director. odd.
Friday, July 9, 2010
handcuffs--native guns
Hours away from the verdict of the historic Oscar Grant trial, rappers Kiwi and Bambu (along with DJ Phatrick) have reunited as Native Guns to release their latest song, “Handcuffs” (produced by Six Fingers).
“With so much emotion and uncertainty around the outcome of this case, we felt a sense of urgency to come back together and do this track” states Kiwi, a former Oakland resident. Bambu adds, “We both experienced the L.A riots in 1992 firsthand, and we wanted to remind people of the lessons learned from back then, so we can keep them in mind as we move forward with this current situation.”
to read more and to hear the song click here
“With so much emotion and uncertainty around the outcome of this case, we felt a sense of urgency to come back together and do this track” states Kiwi, a former Oakland resident. Bambu adds, “We both experienced the L.A riots in 1992 firsthand, and we wanted to remind people of the lessons learned from back then, so we can keep them in mind as we move forward with this current situation.”
to read more and to hear the song click here
Thursday, July 8, 2010
the verdict
today the verdict for the mehserle case came down today. involuntary manslaughter! wtf?!?! that man murdered that boy. so much was taken out of the case. mehserle had already beat down a black man six months earlier. also part of his defense was that he was so stressed that he went temporarily blind because of it. wtf!?!?! when will the system see that it is built and perpetuates racism?
also, one of the police cars hit a woman during the protest. wtf?!!? so much shit is wrong with this whole situation! i'm so mad and upset. i don't even know what to do.
driving home, it was like a ghost town. there has been such an eery feeling in the air since the verdict was announced.
i dunno. fuck.
also, one of the police cars hit a woman during the protest. wtf?!!? so much shit is wrong with this whole situation! i'm so mad and upset. i don't even know what to do.
driving home, it was like a ghost town. there has been such an eery feeling in the air since the verdict was announced.
i dunno. fuck.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
moving forward
VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): So how is 2010 going for you so far, Virgo? Have you been taking advantage of life's offers to help you move into a dynamic new phase of your relationship life? Have you been willing to set aside tired old strategies for seeking intimacy so that you can discover approaches you've never imagined before? Have you been brave about overcoming the past traumas and hurts that scared you into accepting less than the very best alliances you could seek? I hope you've been pursuing these improvements, because this is the best year in over a decade to accomplish them.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
give and RECEIVE
VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): You're entering a phase of your long-term cycle when cultivating abundance is an especially smart thing to do. To take maximum advantage, I suggest that you be both extra generous and extra receptive to generosity. Bestow more blessings than usual and put yourself in prime positions to gather in more blessings than usual. I realize that the second half of this assignment might be a challenge. You Virgos often feel more comfortable giving than receiving. But in this case, I must
insist that you attend to both equally. The giving part won't work quite right unless the receiving part is in full bloom.
insist that you attend to both equally. The giving part won't work quite right unless the receiving part is in full bloom.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
my biggest fear....
is not being seen. i am very insecure about being invisible. so i overachieve, but in ways that are really behind the scenes. it's very passive aggressive, but also very asian. growing up in a family of unspoken and understood guilt is a hard cycle to break out of. fuck. i'm almost 35 and still worry about what my parents think. lame. you would think by now i would have outgrown that seeing as how i had a drug history that my parents now know about. being queer. fuck. now all i need to do is come out as trans. i hate how my fear of being invisible taints all my interactions. take tonight for instance, this white gay boy came up to me and was talking to me about christina aguilera, and was probably hitting on me (in front of my girlfriend) and all i could think about was that he didn't see me. i could have been any gay boy. it didn't matter. i want to matter. i want to be seen. wtf. hopefully i will resolve this soon....
Friday, June 4, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
cooler than me
by mike posner
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
you got your high brow
shoes on your feet
and you wear them around
like they aint shit.
but you dont know
the way that you look
when your steps
make
that
much
noise.
shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl your so vane
you probably think that this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
you got your high brow
switch your walk
and you dont even look when you pass by.
but you dont know
the way that you look.
when your steps make
that
much
noise.
shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl you're so vane
you probably think this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
and dont you dare act like you dont know (dont know)
know whats up
cause your nose is up.
im approaching up. pshh yup
like i cant give you winter in the summer
or summer in the winter
miami in december
trying to look bored in them diors. (diors)
she probably is
was acting shallow until
she find out how deep that my pockets is.
mrs. pre-madonna
this is your reminder
that i think you're fine
but im finer shine yup
cause it sure seems (it sure seems)
you got no doubts (you got no doubts)
but we can all see (we all see)
you got your head in the clouds (clouds)
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey"
or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
you got your high brow
shoes on your feet
and you wear them around
like they aint shit.
but you dont know
the way that you look
when your steps
make
that
much
noise.
shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl your so vane
you probably think that this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
you got your high brow
switch your walk
and you dont even look when you pass by.
but you dont know
the way that you look.
when your steps make
that
much
noise.
shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl you're so vane
you probably think this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
and dont you dare act like you dont know (dont know)
know whats up
cause your nose is up.
im approaching up. pshh yup
like i cant give you winter in the summer
or summer in the winter
miami in december
trying to look bored in them diors. (diors)
she probably is
was acting shallow until
she find out how deep that my pockets is.
mrs. pre-madonna
this is your reminder
that i think you're fine
but im finer shine yup
cause it sure seems (it sure seems)
you got no doubts (you got no doubts)
but we can all see (we all see)
you got your head in the clouds (clouds)
if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.
you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey"
or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.
Master of Details
for me to keep in mind this week:
VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): How skilled are you at getting things done and making things happen? This is different from just being busy; it's not the same as scrambling around attending to whatever tasks are at the forefront of your attention. I'm talking about actually cranking out excellent results that manifest a comprehensive vision of your intentions. I'm talking about working hard and smart to serve the big picture, not working frenetically and mechanically to rid yourself of nervous mental energy. You're in a phase when these themes are especially important, Virgo. Be a master of the details; don't let the details master you.
VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): How skilled are you at getting things done and making things happen? This is different from just being busy; it's not the same as scrambling around attending to whatever tasks are at the forefront of your attention. I'm talking about actually cranking out excellent results that manifest a comprehensive vision of your intentions. I'm talking about working hard and smart to serve the big picture, not working frenetically and mechanically to rid yourself of nervous mental energy. You're in a phase when these themes are especially important, Virgo. Be a master of the details; don't let the details master you.
Monday, May 17, 2010
time lapse volcano!
found this on boingboing today and thought it was awesome!
Iceland, Eyjafjallajökull - May 1st and 2nd, 2010 from Sean Stiegemeier on Vimeo.
Iceland, Eyjafjallajökull - May 1st and 2nd, 2010 from Sean Stiegemeier on Vimeo.
what bands did you like in high school?
so tonight i was chatting with some friends and asked 'what band did you like in high school?'
here are the answers so far:
third eye blind
eve 6
orgy
linkin park
gin blossoms
limp bizkit
bare naked ladies
no doubt
cherry poppin' daddies
radiohead
portishead
some not favorite bands were:
chumbawamba
blues traveler
dave matthews
hootie
we have also determined that the 90s were not such a great time for music and neither were the 00s.
and now we have justin bieber.
here are the answers so far:
third eye blind
eve 6
orgy
linkin park
gin blossoms
limp bizkit
bare naked ladies
no doubt
cherry poppin' daddies
radiohead
portishead
some not favorite bands were:
chumbawamba
blues traveler
dave matthews
hootie
we have also determined that the 90s were not such a great time for music and neither were the 00s.
and now we have justin bieber.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
projecting the positive
today at work was hard. i was irritated and i couldn't really stop. i tried to get out of it and relax and take things as they came, but it really didn't work. it got to the point where i wanted to punch someone in the face....or neck....or something. i ended up having a random chat on facebook with a friend and asked her how she stays positive. it turns out she is going through a hard time and just puts the positive out there. i am going to try to put positive things out there and see what that brings me. at this point, i think i have been trying to do that, but really the negative is getting in the way. so, i'm going to try that tactic and just put the positive out there and see if that changes things.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
gay cousin
just saw my gay cousin at trader joe's. he hasn't come out yet, but he's a big ole gaywad. maybe if he came out then i can talk to my family too. i dunno. it makes me sad that he lives a closeted life. or maybe i'm just sad because i live a closeted life as well.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
empty
i am feeling a bit empty. like i'm running on fumes and i don't know how much longer i can do it. it's 5 months till i turn 35 and i feel like i've been running on empty for the the past 15 years. i keep seeming to hit this wall and i don't know how to get around it. did i build this wall? how can i dismantle it?
i feel like i work so hard and i have nothing to show for it. i don't see any friends. i don't have a strong attachment to my family. what do i have?
i feel like i work so hard and i have nothing to show for it. i don't see any friends. i don't have a strong attachment to my family. what do i have?
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
un-motivated
so i am getting that feeling again. don't want to do anything. can't seem to do or say anything right. i know it will pass and i try to be in the moment, but these moments of extreme discomfort leave me struggling. i guess that is life.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
tiny art director
so i used to read this blog tiny art director, it's a really cool and cute blog about a guy who draws ideas from his daughter and then she critiques them. it's hilarious and cute and totally random. i guess now he has a book
out. fantastic!
out. fantastic!
tampon chandelier
so i found this a little while ago, but forgot to share.....
and here is a close-up.
ridiculous! and i love it!
and here is a close-up.
ridiculous! and i love it!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
in order to live a full life...
remember to be open
Whatever you do, make sure to infuse it with passion, Cindy. You may have the tendency to over-analyze everything, when in reality, what you need to do is follow your intuition. You know deep down in your heart which way you should proceed, and how you should treat the people around you. Don't try to force the situation or try to manipulate it into something that it is not. This is a wonderful day for you in which you have the opportunity to share a greater part of yourself with others. Be open to receiving the love and understanding that you deserve.
Whatever you do, make sure to infuse it with passion, Cindy. You may have the tendency to over-analyze everything, when in reality, what you need to do is follow your intuition. You know deep down in your heart which way you should proceed, and how you should treat the people around you. Don't try to force the situation or try to manipulate it into something that it is not. This is a wonderful day for you in which you have the opportunity to share a greater part of yourself with others. Be open to receiving the love and understanding that you deserve.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
try sleeping with a broken heart
by alicia keys
Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear inside my head
Tellin' me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were tellin' me lies
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well, you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown
You made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me
Near me, I thought you told me
You'd never leave me
Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I know right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love
With you
Right til the end OOh
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
http://www.elyricsworld.com/try_sleeping_with_a_broken_heart_lyrics_alicia_keys.html
Anybody could've told you right from the start
It's about to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream
Or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it
Don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear inside my head
Tellin' me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were tellin' me lies
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well, you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown
You made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me
Near me, I thought you told me
You'd never leave me
Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I know right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love
With you
Right til the end OOh
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
http://www.elyricsworld.com/try_sleeping_with_a_broken_heart_lyrics_alicia_keys.html
Anybody could've told you right from the start
It's about to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream
Or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it
Don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Back UP! Concrete Diaries
this looks like it's gonna be so good. can't wait to see the finished product. i hear from my girlfriend about all this and it makes me so mad! i can't believe guys get away with this shit. to find out more about this project go here.
Friday, March 5, 2010
step in the right direction
so i know i've been complaining about too much work and not enough time for other shit. but i have recently become obsessed with design blogs. i can't get enough of swissmiss. it's a designer in brooklyn who just blogs cool shit that she finds. wow! it's so inspiring and cool to see everything. it's making me very excited. who knows maybe i'll actually use that excitement to create something.....
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
less than?
since all i do is work these days, i haven't had time to think, to feel, to do much of anything really.
but all of a sudden today i had the overwhelming feeling that i was not enough. that i am less than, deficient. i have begun the process of starting hormones, but is that enough? will i ever really feel like a complete man? i mean i've always felt not right. will hormones and surgery make me feel complete? i don't know. i guess all i can do is move forward and through this.
but all of a sudden today i had the overwhelming feeling that i was not enough. that i am less than, deficient. i have begun the process of starting hormones, but is that enough? will i ever really feel like a complete man? i mean i've always felt not right. will hormones and surgery make me feel complete? i don't know. i guess all i can do is move forward and through this.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
work-whore
all i do is work these days. work, work, work. whatever happened to me having a life? is this how i am going to approach middle age? lame! i don't seem to have time to daydream or stare at walls or sleep. i can't even seem to find the time to make doctors appointments....
well, at least this weekend i went to little farm up in tilden park and saw sheep, cows, turkeys, chickens, ducks, bunnies, and goats.
well, at least this weekend i went to little farm up in tilden park and saw sheep, cows, turkeys, chickens, ducks, bunnies, and goats.
Monday, March 1, 2010
i gotta keep myself open this week....
VIRGO (August 23-September 22): A particular person in your life (or more than one, for that matter) may surprise you this week… and in a good-surprise kind of way. (In fact, that certain person could prove to be the actual surprise him-/herself, if a beloved figure from your past returns or a soon-to-be-beloved figure from your future finally arrives.) But you, Virgo, also bear the potential to miss the surprise altogether, if you are so sure you know how a given interaction or the flow of your entire day is going to go that you're merely moving through the motions, getting exactly what you expected to get because that's all you're open to. To take advantage of the continuing influences of startling insight and evolutionary growth in your relationship house (the 7th), then, you mustn't assume you've 'figured out' any other individual's behaviors, motivations, intentions or feelings toward you. Even if you've been partnered with them for years or decades, they may still have a new trick or two up their sleeve. Allow them the freedom to be different—and allow yourself the joy of being pleasantly surprised.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
bored
tired of the world; blase: uninterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence
i am so bored. i don't know what to do. i feel uninspired and unmotivated. meh.
i am so bored. i don't know what to do. i feel uninspired and unmotivated. meh.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
100 cupcakes
omigod. i found this via boing boing and it came via will wheaton.......100 cupcakes that depict different board games and video games..click the picture to go there....A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.!!!!
push/pull
feeling a little bit caught.
caught between the past and the present.
caught between the frames of my mind.
caught between responsibility and slackdom.
caught between being present and daydreaming.
caught between myself and my stories.
caught between freedom and martyrdom.
if the push and the pull are evenly matched how do you move? immobilized by the push/pull. is it that eventually one side overwhelms the other or is it that one side just underwhelms the other?
caught between the past and the present.
caught between the frames of my mind.
caught between responsibility and slackdom.
caught between being present and daydreaming.
caught between myself and my stories.
caught between freedom and martyrdom.
if the push and the pull are evenly matched how do you move? immobilized by the push/pull. is it that eventually one side overwhelms the other or is it that one side just underwhelms the other?
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