so i'm feeling a bit more centered. but i know that this is gonna be a bit of a process. dealing with life can be overwhelming and stressful, but i need to remember to recognize and appreciate what i do have. i think that will help me balance out the feelings of stress and irritation. i can't let those feelings overwhelm me.
as a side note, i've been thinking about my transition more and though that also causes me stress, it's really important for me to be who i am. and for me to really be me, i need to change myself physically. i've been thinking about surgery more and more over the past couple of days. it scares me and excites me at the same time.
