surgery

also, as side note, i have been considering surgery more seriously recently. i found out that the doctor i want to go to may be retiring soon, so i gotta get on it. his results are the best i've seen. i feel like i will be more comfortable going to the beach, the pool, whereever....i want to be able to walk shirtless and confident.

sigh....

restless

work has been moving so fast! i feel like i run a marathon every day. doing this and that and that and this. never really feeling like i get anything done. i know i am working at a start up and it takes a while to get everything in place, but damn! it takes a lot to run a whole center. i've definitely had to learn a lot in a short amount of time. it seems like every day there is a new obstacle to tackle. and it's added onto to just the regular parts of my job that i don't even have time for. i have so many different aspects to my job and i don't seem to have time to focus on any of it. i feel like i am always playing catch up and running around chasing my tail. i don't feel like i'm actually getting anything done. but i guess i am since nothing has come back to bite me. i kinda like the pace of things sometimes, but i have definitely been putting in a lot of 12 hour days. luckily i get to take tomorrow and friday off. i need a little rest. i need time to reflect. i need time for fun.

tomorrow me and the lady are going to six flags magic kingdom. roller coasters and animal shows. what more could you ask for? what a great way to spend a tuesday.

and thursday me and the lady are going to go camping for night. it should be interesting. we aren't going far. it's the first of hopefully many camping trips. we are building up to bigger camping later on. basically we are going to drive up into the hills to anthony chabot park, pitch a tent, cook over fire, hang out, then pack up and leave. it will be nice to out in nature for a minute.

what i would really love to be able to afford is to spend some time on a tropical beach. sleeping in a hammock and having some cocktails and playing in the ocean. may later this year....