off center

i have been really off center recently and not necessarily in a good way. i feel like i've been dealing with a lot of different changes and i've been handling them pretty well. but i also feel a little distant and lost. i have been feeling really disconnected from myself. i feel like i have been changing, but i don't really know how. i haven't had time to sit with myself and just be with it. i have been carried away by various tides and have been a bit tossed around by the currents surrounding me. and i've been trying to hold tight to myself, but ultimately, i give way to these external currents. i need to re-center myself and be ok with me before running off and trying to ride these other currents. this week will be good for that and i'm gonna make the most of it. if i'm not here for me, then i can't be there for other people. it's my one big lesson in life that i am still learning. but with everything, practice makes permanent.