cranky pants

so i keep hearing about people i know doing/being self-destructive and it's really bothering me. part of me wants to shake them really hard and another part wants to just ignore them. i don't know if it's just bringing up old stuff within myself or what. all i know is that it aggravates me and i don't know what to do about it. i guess i just have to be patient and let people go through what they are going through. part of me wants to fix it for them, but that is not something that i can/should do. i feel selfish because things are going well in my life and i feel so impatient that other people's lives are not. i dunno. maybe i just need to not be around people right now. i am going through some major life transitions again. maybe i just need to focus on me. but that makes me feel selfish as well. argh. i dunno. the prospect of having time to myself in the not too distant future is making me a little impatient. i just need to relax. i am such a cranky pants and it's annoying me. i guess that is the root of all this. i just need to learn to relax again. i need to take care of myself. i know what i need to do to do that, but i don't have the time right now. in a few weeks, everything will be different. i guess i'll just have to wait it out.