man of leisure

so i have once again come to the conclusion that i want to be a man of leisure. i would probably still work part time somewhere but then i would spend the rest of my time travelling, creating art, and throwing ridiculously glittery and gay parties.

i would be so good at it! now all i need to do is find someone to give me a trust fund or win the lottery so that i can make this a reality.

16 golden retrievers + atoms = SCIENCE

books are alive

my name is brian

thanks craigslist!

first person narratives

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): An article in the Online Noetics Network profiled the work of Robert Muller, who served as Assistant Secretary-General of the United Nations. It said that Muller is "one of the best informed human beings on the planet," with an "encyclopedic grasp of the facts concerning the state of the world." And yet Muller doesn't keep up with the news as it's reported in the media. Instead, he simply talks to people, either in person as he travels, or on the phone, or through written correspondence. These interactions provide him with all the understanding he needs. I recommend that you try Muller's approach for a while, Virgo. Assume that you can get all the information you really need by gathering first-hand reports from people about what's actually
happening in their lives.

changes a-coming.

i am working on changing my state of mind. it's time to be more centered. i have gotten carried awaywith extraneous stresses and situations. i need to take care of myself. i am making a promise to myself to take care of myself. because when i don't my mind wanders to the all too familiar place. it's a dangerous place. and i need to keep myself in check.

i am working towards a new life. a life full of things that i need. i need a new work situation. one that allows me to flourish. one that allows me the space and time i need to create art and video and to learn new things. i need happiness and joy in my heart. i need a place where i belong. i need quality time with meagan. i need to feel freedom in my every waking moment.

what i want

is a job that i can leave at the end of the day. one that allows me the time and energy to do the other things that interest me. one that will also pay all the bills and be enough where i don't have to struggle financially. i would like to be able to spend quality time with meagan instead of freaking out and trying to decompress enough to go to sleep. one that is semi-active. i want a more balanced life. i want to be able to address my personal transition. one that gives me full medical, dental and vision benefits. this is my first vocalizing of this in the universe. i am still refining the intentions and desires i want to put out there, but this is a pretty good representation of what i want and also what i need in my life. i am very unhappy and i would like to change that.