give and RECEIVE

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): You're entering a phase of your long-term cycle when cultivating abundance is an especially smart thing to do. To take maximum advantage, I suggest that you be both extra generous and extra receptive to generosity. Bestow more blessings than usual and put yourself in prime positions to gather in more blessings than usual. I realize that the second half of this assignment might be a challenge. You Virgos often feel more comfortable giving than receiving. But in this case, I must
insist that you attend to both equally. The giving part won't work quite right unless the receiving part is in full bloom.

my biggest fear....

is not being seen. i am very insecure about being invisible. so i overachieve, but in ways that are really behind the scenes. it's very passive aggressive, but also very asian. growing up in a family of unspoken and understood guilt is a hard cycle to break out of. fuck. i'm almost 35 and still worry about what my parents think. lame. you would think by now i would have outgrown that seeing as how i had a drug history that my parents now know about. being queer. fuck. now all i need to do is come out as trans. i hate how my fear of being invisible taints all my interactions. take tonight for instance, this white gay boy came up to me and was talking to me about christina aguilera, and was probably hitting on me (in front of my girlfriend) and all i could think about was that he didn't see me. i could have been any gay boy. it didn't matter. i want to matter. i want to be seen. wtf. hopefully i will resolve this soon....

RIP Rue McClanahan

cooler than me

by mike posner

if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.

you got your high brow
shoes on your feet
and you wear them around
like they aint shit.

but you dont know
the way that you look
when your steps
make
that
much
noise.

shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl your so vane
you probably think that this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?

if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.

you got your high brow
switch your walk
and you dont even look when you pass by.
but you dont know
the way that you look.
when your steps make
that
much
noise.

shh, see i got you
all figured out
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl you're so vane
you probably think this song is about you.
dont you?
dont you?

if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
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i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey" or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.

and dont you dare act like you dont know (dont know)
know whats up
cause your nose is up.
im approaching up. pshh yup
like i cant give you winter in the summer
or summer in the winter
miami in december
trying to look bored in them diors. (diors)
she probably is
was acting shallow until
she find out how deep that my pockets is.
mrs. pre-madonna
this is your reminder
that i think you're fine
but im finer shine yup

cause it sure seems (it sure seems)
you got no doubts (you got no doubts)
but we can all see (we all see)
you got your head in the clouds (clouds)

if i could write you a song
and make you fall in love
i would already have you up under my arm.
i used up all my tricks
i hope that you like this.
but you probably won't
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say "hey"
or remember my name.
its probably cause you think you're cooler than me.

Master of Details

for me to keep in mind this week:

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): How skilled are you at getting things done and making things happen? This is different from just being busy; it's not the same as scrambling around attending to whatever tasks are at the forefront of your attention. I'm talking about actually cranking out excellent results that manifest a comprehensive vision of your intentions. I'm talking about working hard and smart to serve the big picture, not working frenetically and mechanically to rid yourself of nervous mental energy. You're in a phase when these themes are especially important, Virgo. Be a master of the details; don't let the details master you.

time lapse volcano!

found this on boingboing today and thought it was awesome!


Iceland, Eyjafjallajökull - May 1st and 2nd, 2010 from Sean Stiegemeier on Vimeo.

what bands did you like in high school?

so tonight i was chatting with some friends and asked 'what band did you like in high school?'

here are the answers so far:
third eye blind
eve 6
orgy
linkin park
gin blossoms
limp bizkit
bare naked ladies
no doubt
cherry poppin' daddies
radiohead
portishead

some not favorite bands were:
chumbawamba
blues traveler
dave matthews
hootie

we have also determined that the 90s were not such a great time for music and neither were the 00s.

and now we have justin bieber.