hamster on a piano

ummm.....wtf?!?! hahahaha!

35 years

so yesterday was my parents' anniversary. they have been married for 35 years! it's really crazy. especially considering how much they get on each other's nerves. yeah, so i went home to see them and have dinner. everything was great through dinner and dessert. and then they started to get into a fight. so i left. i just can't watch it anymore. and luckily, i'm old enough now that i can go to my own house. maybe i just ran away, but i've had to deal with their weird fighting my whole life. and i've always been deliberately put in the middle of it. i guess it shows growth that i can walk away from it.

cleaning the inner sludge

VIRGO (August 23-September 22): None of this is terribly pleasant or easy, I'm afraid. (Though, if I'm wrong, I'll happily exchange my accuracy for your easy pleasure.) In my imagination of your current state, Virgo, you are the pipe underneath the proverbial kitchen sink that's had one too many pans of bacon grease poured down your tubes… and you're presently being scraped, prodded and probed by the equivalent of the cosmos' Roto-Rooter man. How on earth could that be comfortable? Yet, as the caked-on crap is, slowly and surely (or was that slowly and painfully?), being excised from your psychic cavities, you are receiving an incredibly deep cleanse. To make the most of it then (and to make it go as quickly as possible), you mustn't hold on to those residual bits of experiences once enjoyed or endured, as if to let them go would be the same as to erase your memories—or as releasing other people from their responsibilities in creating those memories. This is a hyper-super-Aries moment, my dear… and Aries types hardly hold onto anything, as long as there's somewhere new and exciting to move toward. Why look back? Please surrender to that celestial pipe-cleaner currently being forced through your innards, all the while repeating the same notions to yourself over and over in your head. Let go. Release. Embracing the concept definitely assists in the actual discharge.

quick updates for this week

1. had a weird stomach thing the other day and felt like my insides were trying to crawl out. puked at work. went to doctor. went home.
2. the parkway is closing and apparently everyone i know wants to know the inside scoop. all i know is that they told the public before telling the staff and that is just bad business.
3. i am very excited about going to nyc to play.
4. i am hoping that everyone i love is doing well and taking care of themselves.
5. i am tired of having weird illnesses that completely take me down. is this my punishment for quitting smoking???!?!?
6. i am very glad it is springtime and the sun is shining. it makes the days feel so much better and manageable.
7. i am going to save money to learn how to ride a motorcycle this year. fer reals!

how hot is this?!!?!

so randomly, i found these straight razors online. i want one so bad!

love poo

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): Years ago a Polish scientist toiling in Antarctica was consumed with longing for a woman he'd left behind in his home country. Spilling over with the desire to express his adoration, he gathered a mass of penguin dung and used it to spell out a large "M" on the frigid ground. It was the first letter of his girlfriend's name, Magda. To this day, two species of flowering plants have thrived in that M-shaped area, fed by the fertilizing power of the dung. Your assignment in the coming week, Virgo, is to create something equally enduring and unique for someone you care for deeply.

muddled

my brain is swirling. my emotions are outta wack and i feel like i'm swirling. i am trying to grab ahold of whatever is around me, but i think that all i really need to do is get ahold of myself. i'm trying. it's hard to do battle with yourself to reset your defaults.