so i am in a state of limbo. i just need to get used to it. it's hard to let go of a future that you had been working for and planning on. but then again. nothing stays the same. everything changes and you have to just roll with it. that's life i guess. transitions are hard for me, but i am getting more ok with them. i just have to be patient and open. everything happens how it's supposed to happen. i can't force my will onto any situation. the situation is what it is. and things are what they are. that is the way life is.
anyways, it just goes to show that i am letting go of fear. slowly but surely. pushing myself to do things i wouldn't 'normally' do. the only reason i don't do things is out of fear. and that's not really a reason. whatever i 'think' is going to happen has held me back in the past and now i'm trying to not think so much and trying to act more. being conscious of fear is one thing. letting it go is another. but only i can push myself to do let go.
speaking of letting go. i have a friend who has a tattoo that says 'let go' on her wrist and when she got it, i remember making fun of her for it. but now, i understand. so i kinda have to eat my words. but that's how it goes. live and learn.
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