Tuesday, October 7, 2008

helpless

i don't know what to do. i visited my friend with the sick mom and it was really hard. i was up there pretty much all day today and i just feel like i didn't do anything. i felt so useless and confused. i dunno how my friend is going so strong. i guess she has had the last 10 years to deal with all this. it's pretty amazing. there were 3 of us from the east bay who went up to see her. we basically had a picnic on her bed and just hung out. it could have been any other day almost. we just hung out and tried to be normal. but how can you be normal knowing that her mom is dying in the next room? i feel like there should be something that i should do for her. something to make things easier. something to make things right. but i don't know what right is in this situation. i know it's not for me to make right or fix. i just feel so helpless. i didn't know what to say. i didn't know what to do. i guess things are just like that.

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