wtf?!??!!?

apparently this is a real ad......le sigh.

the end is coming

it's coming to the end of my vacation and i don't want to go home. i don't want vacation to end. it's been so much fun running around the city all week. i just don't wanna go. but at the same time, i do miss home. i miss my bed. there is nothing like a good vacation to make you appreciate how great home really is. i do think that you should go on vacation with friends. it's loads of fun. but yes. vacation is coming to an end and i am heading back to reality. i love seeing my besty. she's the best. just wish we could have actually spent more time together doin' stuff.

quick breakdown of this week...working backwards....from twitter.....

1. Don't really want to go home
2. getting chinese food delivered tonight. yay! i love delivery!
3. this vacation has been so much fun. i love vacations!
4. Not one but two
5. the week has finally caught up to this old man. relaxin' in brooklyn tonight.
6. Covered in bits of the city today
7. The pastrami sandwich was delicious
8. There is a grown man wearing am elmo baseball hat on the train tonight
9. Is tonight the night for katz's pastrami sandwich?
10. Motorcity bar in the lower east side where the lights are bright and the music is loud
11. It was a beautiful spring day in the city today.
12. Apparently people get grumpy on vacation too
13. Karaoke at 'The oldest black owned non discriminating club' in brooklyn
14. There is beer and house music everywhere
15. oh yeah, finally got a much needed haircut. no more mohawk...now it's a wallstreet 'do.
16. Tonight was an early night
17. 'livin on a prayer' at the stonewall
18. What is a disney queen?
19. Meeting up with all the cali kids in nyc
20. At the stonewall inn listening to michael jackson
21. There is nothing like vacation to make you appreciate home
22. Barcade in williamsburg tonight
23. At 'one of the top 5 kitchiest restaurants in america'
24. Just spotted: the creepy couple from real housewives
25. looking at apts and jobs in nyc. can i really afford to live here?
26. 5 shots for $10
27. Just got turned down at a bar because of my baby face
28. Going to get west indian food in brooklyn
29. Vacations mean late night fun
30. On a night time subway adventure
31. Vacation time = fun times...
32. Landed in nyc! Let the vacation fun begin!

lighter....

after checking myself and checking in with my staff, i feel better. i realized that hearing their stories are triggering my own issues of things that have happened in my past. things that i thought i had dealt with. but for whatever reason are coming up again. it all leads to the lesson of letting go. i really need to get that into my soul.

realization....

so i realized concretely today why i've been such a stress case and why i have been so frustrated and angsty feeling. i am really worried about one of my young staff. i feel really helpless around her in the sense that i know that i can't fix her life, but i really want to. i either want to fix it all for her or shake her really hard so she realizes what she needs to do to make her life work differently. i dunno. i haven't slept well the past few nights because of this. i can fall asleep pretty easily, but then i wake up and have weird restless sleep. i don't want to get up in the morning and am pretty grouchy. i guess part of my time away from the bay will be to get a little perspective on what i need to do to support her. i can see how amazing she is and i just want her to see it too.

printer vs. bin

nahid wants this to happen here.....

death and taxes

wtf?!@?!? how the hell do i owe so much money in taxes? apparently the government is gonna screw me this year. fuck. i guess working 2 jobs and going to school was not really worth it. gr.