realization....

so i realized concretely today why i've been such a stress case and why i have been so frustrated and angsty feeling. i am really worried about one of my young staff. i feel really helpless around her in the sense that i know that i can't fix her life, but i really want to. i either want to fix it all for her or shake her really hard so she realizes what she needs to do to make her life work differently. i dunno. i haven't slept well the past few nights because of this. i can fall asleep pretty easily, but then i wake up and have weird restless sleep. i don't want to get up in the morning and am pretty grouchy. i guess part of my time away from the bay will be to get a little perspective on what i need to do to support her. i can see how amazing she is and i just want her to see it too.