dishwasher with no life

so tonight i started my new job at the parkway theater as the dishwasher. i am so tired now that i feel like crying. i don't know how i'll be able to do this again tomorrow night. everyone was saying that i would be done by midnight, but alas i didn't finish until 1:15. i know it's just the first day and it's a big change in my schedule, but i really feel like crying. everything hurts and i have to be up again in like 6 hours to go to work. what have i done to myself? in a month, this will be a lot different. i just have to remember that. once school starts, things will be different. i'll hopefully only be working one job and going to school. i'm a little nervous about how this is all gonna work out, but i know that it will. i just won't have a social life at all. just school and work. it's what i've been working towards and now that it's here, i kinda wanna cry. it's a humbling experience to be working so hard again. i've been such a slacker that it's hard to actually do work. everyone's gotta pay their dues to get to where they wanna go. it's my turn to pay now and it's all good. basically, i'm not gonna have any social life anymore. it's just gonna be work and school and work and school. i feel like i'm committing to not sleeping for the next 2 years of my life and i'm just gonna be working really hard. i wonder where i will end up. i'll just have to wait and see.